So much like many things in life, a chapter is closing. The embers of a long 23 year love affair, are barely glowing under the pile of ashes. The smallest hint of warmth still glowing from the surrounding rocks and the earthen base on which the fire was built.
Here I enter into this new contract this dissolution. Funny how at the beginning, the paperwork reflects the deep desires of the heart, but here and now the paperwork cannot reflect what is still living in the heart. Strangely, love does not die in this man. Although the life is not what it was, there are no remnants of passion's hot desire, no unseen pull of my lovers heart from across the globe calling me home. There is the Safehaven which I constructed for her that will always remain. A human place where no sin and no anger no judgment or condemnation can push her from my heart. A spot where compassion lives on. A place where a selfless joy and hope always will remain. Here in this heart, not far from the spot where my high school sweetheart also has an eternal shrine, there is a sacred inviolable space.
Yearly holidays will come and she will be remembered fondly. Quiet prayers for her health safety and well-being will be spoken. Memories of past places we visited, erotic escapades that raised the roof, and the quiet sanctuaries, where two hearts found solace in each other.
But in the now and forever after, the happily ever after of this life, freedom will remain. Two signatures will close the deal on the legal ramifications, but pen ink can never blot out the history born of blood and the passionate fury of true love.
A legal entity will fade away like a ghost in the machine, but two human hearts will remain indelibly marked. Much the better for having found each other in this time in this world.
And so begins the letting go....
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So Begins the Task
Stephen Stills and Manasas
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